I Can't Say It

I Can't Say It

So many conflicted feelings bundled inside me.

I don’t like it.

They keep roaming around me every day.

Why? Because I can’t say it.

My parents, my friends, my family,

They can’t hear me.

But I can hear myself.

I’m shouting whispers to them.

So loud, that the whole world can hear me.

No one feels the sadness,

That lingers inside my lonely heart.

No one knows how it feels,

To be without a voice.

I listen to my friends chatting to each other,

Their voices so loud that my ears could burst,

But I don’t join the conversation.

Why? Because I can’t say it.

To have the freedom to speak,

To communicate with the rest of the world,

That would be a dream come true,

But that isn’t going to happen soon.

Not today, not ever.

No one can ever hear my voice.

Those feelings will continue to pile up.

Why? Because I can’t say it.